when you listen to a song you used to listen to ages ago and you get that weird as fuck spine chilling feeling as you remember how your life was at that point in time
Yeah I’ve basically eaten my own eight in rice today. I don’t want to look at another spoon full again. Ever.
People are quite strange really. Wouldn’t life be just so much easier if we just told it how it is? Mind games and playing around gets boring after a while. It gets tiresome trying to work people out.
Hi. I’ve been feeling better lately. Up and down really. I’m house sitting my mum and her boyfriend’s house. It’s like having my own house, it’s amazing. I’ve missed having the Internet so much! Time to download.
I finally have my password back. Somehow I managed to accidentally log out of my account a couple of weeks ago and I forgot my password, so I was too lazy to bother to try and work out how to get back in. But then I decided it was time to vent. I need to. And there’s no where better to do it.
I seem to be at a point where I don’t know what to do. I’ve been feeling numb to the world for the past number of days. Right now, everything is one big lie. And I’m hiding it so well. I’m so unhappy right now. I feel trapped. This one thing has been plaguing my mind for a while now and I can’t shake it off. But I have to because it’s so wrong in every way. I promised myself it wouldn’t end up like this, but of course it did. Oh god, it’s actually agonising. I asked my grandma if I could move in with her because she lives 2 minutes away from work and closer to my friends and she said yes and I was happy and such. Now I feel like I will miss my family and I will feel lonely and out of place at her house. But it’s what I want, right? I mean, I fucking hate it here in Jane Brook. I might as well be living at the bottom of the ocean. I guess my whole life I’ve never really felt like I’ve belonged anywhere in particular - I’ve lived in something like, ten or eleven houses. I don’t know. I hope I can move on from all this but to do that I need to help myself but stopping myself from doing and wanting to do such stupid things.
